Shoes

Ok, strange title, but that was the main thing I worked on yesterday. My RL work held me back so I was a couple of hours late logging in, I had plans to complete the shoes I had promised and update my hair class. I decided the shoes were more important.

I had a class to teach, on flexi skirts. I enjoy teaching, perhaps its the exhibitionist in me, but I love a class with student participation. This class was a tough one, little in the way of laughs or jokes, and the smallest one so far for flexi skirts. I think I need to come up with a Joke-A-Matic for the period before the class starts, or find a warm-up act lol.

I completed the shoes, but was worried that they would not be acceptable. I met with Lucy, Kev, and Xx who all expressed delight, I really do hope that they are good enough, being the first pair i have seriously made for someone.

I'm still trying to work out where I stand in the NCI community, esp at Beach, I still think of myself as 'young' and yet in many situations I'm one of the older residents. I went to Guiding Waters to complete the shoes, it has a good prim count, and I am conscious of giving Talia and Austin their space. While there, Unique dropped by, he apologized for disturbing me, remarking that I was someone he respected and did not want to upset, which was sweet of him. This has me thinking, until now I have considered myself as a bit of a noob still, able to make social mistakes and get away with them, of no particular import in the NCI and Beach social circles. But may be this is changing, and it worries me. In RL I consider myself to be socially inept, and avoid potential faux pas situations, I have no close friends in RL for this reason. In SL I am more involved in the community, with many friends, but this creates a greater chance of committing a social faux pas. I want to be approachable, friendly, welcoming (I almost never turn an IM away), but I have difficulty in approaching others, contacting them, in case I upset them. To some this might make me appear aloof, I hope not, in fact its the reverse, I consider others feelings to be more important than mine. Perhaps in SL there is room for me to be accepted and not judged. My eccentricities, peculiarities, to be accepted by others as part of the great social tapestry that SL is. I hope so.

Be who you are,

Afon